So... Two weeks in, what's it like having a baby and a toddler?
I'm not going to lie, it's hard, not hard as in I'm not enjoying it, or that I regret any decisions we made, but hard as in, tiring and demanding, the things I expected but couldn't prepare myself for.
Because I'm breast feeding Logan he obviously has more of a need in me, but Connor still needs me too and sometimes it's hard to find a balance that suits everybody. This is where it has been really useful that Dane has had paternity leave, we can swap tasks with the boys so they each get a fair and even helping of both of us. He restarts work on Wednesday though and I'll be on my own with the boys, for an extended period, for the first time!
One of the things I think about most is how I can do the things I need to do that the kids can't be involved in, cooking, cleaning, even nipping to the loo! The thing is I can't yet trust Connor to be alone with Logan, he just doesn't understand and he can become quite heavy handed when he gets overexcited, which is most of the time when it comes to "Baba"! I think that bouncy chairs strategically placed around the house are going to be very useful.
I think the key to me not getting overwhelmed with everything that needs doing is to become more relaxed, the realisation that my house isn't going to be completely tidy all the time and the pots in the sink might have to wait till the morning will help me get the lads and myself into a routine I can cope with on my own. At the moment it feels like an achievement to have us all dressed and fed before lunchtime!
Even though its tough right now I know that every little bit older my boys get they get more independent and the easier everyday things will become. But at the moment I just want to enjoy them while they are still babies. Connor is amazing, it surprises me how much he learns just from us, he strokes Logan's hair so gently and smiles whenever he sees him, he watches me bath him and feed him and he even trys to put his dummy in for him and pushes the swing when he's in there, I really think Logan is so lucky to have such a fab big bro! And I am so lucky to have two amazing little boys!
Two, its a magic number!
P.S if you have any helpful tips as to how to handle two under two please comment, I would really appreciate it!