Without Him.

I've recently joined a gym, I decided that I can no longer get away with the"I've just given birth" excuse and something must be done.The only thing wrong with this is I can't take him with me, obvious but nevertheless unfortunate, thus meaning he spends my gym sessions at grandmas house. 

We are only apart for a couple of hours maximum, but trying to explain how much I miss him is hard, harder than hard. To say its like missing a limb may sound excessive but I do truly feel lost without him, and even though I know he's safe, happy and loved and I trust my mum completely the feeling of knowing he's not with me can leave me feeling like I've lost my purpose. It's difficult coming to grips with the fact that someone other than me can look after him, give him what he needs and make him happy.

I suppose what I'm trying to say is i miss him, even when people tell you that the love you feel for your baby is indescribable, I still can't believe how attached I have become in such a short space of time and how, I personally, have fallen so hard, fast and completely in love with with my little boy... I guess I've just gotten used to him being around that's all.